Not In the Best Headspace Right Now

I'm not the happiest at the moment.

That's most likely due to stress.

Too much stress in my everyday life.

Too much stress in (almost) every aspect of my life.

But I keep on keeping on... is that a plus?

I'm also not feeling my best, but that's mainly due to some dry cough that I can't seem to kick although I notice it's waning so... yay?

I'm also experiencing powerloss (which I haaaaaaaaate!), but it's not like I can yell NOT TODAY SATAN! and have it instantly vanish, taking all of its annoying symptoms with it.

See ya later, bloating!

It's been real nausea! (No it hasn't.)

Don't let the door hit your ass on the way out, tender ta-tas! 

Oh yeah, and whoever's in charge of taking my latent aches and pains to an 11? You can kick your own ass out! 

To have that kind of power to banish all that lady bits nonsense would be amazing!

I once heard a stand-up comedian talk about her cycle pains being so bad, she joked about grinding up Midol and snorting it in hopes it would kick in faster. I will admit - the idea intrigues me.

I should be asleep right now... but due to powerloss and the added "can I just lay down here and not move for a while" trait kicks in when I get home after work. That mixed in with the current warmer climate just screams "naptime." 

My insomnia on the other hand doesn't care about powerloss and her napcidents. Oh no. It's like the two of them are playing a never-ending tennis game where I always lose. (As an example, I should be in bed right now, but I'm not. I'm here with my laptop seriously questioning my sleep schedule and how we got here.)

I just spied the clock (not on purpose) and see it's almost 1am.

Time to down some ibuprofen, hope for a pleasant slumber and a good day at work tomorrow.

(In quickly reviewing this post, I don't think it sounds all that interesting, but I want to write more, so I'll leave it for now. And who says each entry needs to be a masterpiece?)

Seriously, I should go to bed. It'd be nice if I had a nice dream to wake up from. Recently, I've had a few dreams that involved people that I "know" from show, films, theatre... and them being in my dream. And we're not doing anything exciting. We're just people who know each other having a beer or a cup of tea while we sit around and chat about this and that.

It's better than some of the other "dreams" I've had before. Those can just stay away.

Later my lovelies.

Have Goodness!
Rae

The Return of the Insomniac Sloth

I'm sitting at home. 

It's almost 4am.

I should be asleep but since I had the last three days off - and when I'm not at the office - my sleep schedule, energy levels, and focus are basically... shit. So yeah, I'm... awake.

Probably Should Be Sleeping

"Unfortunately, I suffer from insomnia, so my bedtime is as soon as I start to feel the least bit sleepy."

-Cheyenne Jackson

Sleep, You Are A Strange Bedfellow

I did it again. I slept most of the day.

I'm Awake... And I Don't Want To Be

It's currently 2:25am... and I am awake.

Weekly Blog #2 - It Just Keeps Getting Worse (Or Is It Just Me?)

I Should Really Be Asleep Right Now

You and me both, sister! -Rae to Rapunzel

Insomnia, Thy Illusive Sleep...

With insomnia, nothing's real. Everything's far away. Everything's a copy of a copy of a copy.

-Narrator from the movie "Fight Club"

I WROTE ANOTHER THING!!!

• Noemi is at part twenty-two

And now THAT'S out of the way...

I feel like crap, and I miss my car.

Me: (said like Marlon Brando in Streetcar Named Desire) LIBBY!!!

So all the days I worked last week, I worked at 9am which meant instead of my usual two-hour prep time (grooming and commute), I had to add an extra hour since I'm taking public transportation. Plus side, I don't have to drive or deal with traffic AND I found a route where I don't have to transfer. Not-so-plus side... I have to walk to the lightrail (which isn't really too far away though when you're tired, it feels very 40 Days/40 Nights if you know what I mean), wait for the lightrail, manage to stay awake on the lightrail (the combo of listening to audiobooks and playing Temple Run seems to work), then eventually when I reach my stop walk to the office. At the end of the day, I do the same thing... only in reverse.

Later, rinse, repeat... mother frakkers.

Yesterday was my first evening shift since the start of my pedestrian lifestyle. The lightrail seemed to be running less frequently and by the time I got on the next train, I knew I was going to be late. When I was a few stops away, I texted my lead that was at the office (on weekends, we usually have one morning and one evening person) to let her know where I was at and my ETA to the office (And my guesstimate was right! Huzzah to me!)

Work got a little congested toward the end of the night, and I got out of here (yeah, I'm at the office now, on my lunch) at 10pm. I sent out my emails, shut off all the lights, locked up the building, set the alarm, and headed for the lightrail.

Which reminds me... I'm going to have to recharge my Clipper Card.

I made it home around midnight... ish. Changed into jammies and sluggishly muddled about until I was unwound enough to pass out... only to wake up around 6am to restart the whole process.

On the way to work this morning, I stopped off at the gas station I pass on the way to the lightrail station and bought me two cans of AMP and a Peanut Butter Power Bar. I chugged one can, ate the power bar after, then drank some water before I made it to my stop.

I've been ordering food through work for the past week or so. It seems the money that I would normally spend on gas I am now spending on lunch. I have no real options when it comes to getting food if it's not on my way to or from either lightrail location. Sure, there's the downtown strip between the lightrail and home (of which I've noshed on a taco salad at El Guapo's and then got some dinner at Subway a couple times), but there's no little coffee cart or anyplace truly accessible to me and my two little feetsies.

I suppose I could check out the lunch trucks that come by. They all look so interesting and tasty. I think I've seen more than a handful around the business lots. Usually I bring snacks or eat the bagels and donuts provided every Monday... or I would grab something quick and easy (and as healthy as I could do) on the way home.

Maybe .

Tomorrow is one of my day's off. Jess F will be taking me to my chiro appointment and then back to her house. I will be bringing a lot of things to keep me entertained (reading, writing, etc) while she does her work stuff and her meeting stuff.

And that is my exciting life for the moment.

Later my lovelies.

Have Goodness!
Rae