Why You Gotta Be So Rude?

What once was a regular post turned into a poem of sorts...

Originally this was to be a post

A series of words about something that’s be on my mind

As of late

But the more I think on it

The more I can’t seem to formulate

Comprehensive thoughts

So here I sit before my laptop

Trying to compose something

That along with you - that I can understand

So instead I’ll keep it to this

*the following is a stream of consciousness… thing…*

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Dear you - and you know who you are

What is your deal?

Your problem?

Your situation?

The attitude you sling on a day to day basis

It bothers me

It makes me angry in return

And I don’t like that

You with your commentary on every little thing

You with your words spoken without knowing the facts

You with your practice what I preach attitude

When everyone knows you don’t practice your own sermons

You with you saying things when they don’t need to be said

But letting everyone else in your path know your thoughts

You with your griping but not speaking up to the people

That can make change

You with attitude like we’re not all going through the same thing

You with your getting mad when you have no reason

You with your everyone else is wrong pretense

When it was your fault to begin with

From the best I can recall

I have never treated you poorly (as you have to me)

I have never yelled at you (as you have to me)

I have never blamed you (as you have to me)

I have never pointed out your flaws and mistakes

(As you have to me)

I refuse to reduce myself to your level

To speak such words in front of witnesses

To act in such a way that demeans my person

And my soul

Admittedly there are those that I vent to

Friends who are there for everything

Including my word vomit of ranting

Which has included you

And in the end I feel better

And choose to walk on a higher road

In hopes of not crossing paths with yours

Yet my limited time with you has begun to wane on me

On my ability to pick my battles

And move forward with life

You are not the random person in traffic that cuts me off

Or any other average joe

Even though I only share space with you

A few hours

Of a few days

Each week

That is beginning to feel way longer than I would care for

Yet I have no say in the matter

But if I did, you or I would be elsewhere

Others think your proclamations and commentary

Your rants and sarcastic comments

Are humorous

I feel the laughter you evoke at these times

Merely encourages your bad behaviour

And somewhere in the dark recesses of your mind

You think this is what they want

Your public desires your sassiness

When in reality, you need to shut your yap

That’s right

I said it

Here in my little corner of the universe

Because why?
Because it’s my own corner of the universe

Mine

No one else is here whilst I type this

No one needs to read this

They can choose to do so or not

But it’s a choice

A choice I don’t have when it comes to being around

You

And don’t get it twisted

I may not agree with what you say

But I do believe in your right to say it

But to add on to that little moral compass bullet point

I also believe in that - if it doesn’t harm anyone else

And I feel whenever you open your mouth

The negativity that falls out stabs everyone around you

Like a shrapnel grenade exploding in Disneyland

No longer the happiest place on Earth

Since you unleashed your YOU

You’re becoming toxic to me

It’s getting increasingly harder to keep it in

To resist the urge to punch you in the face

And tell you to shut the fuck up

Perhaps your vitriol has increased in its power

Perhaps you have no idea what has happened

But being around you makes me tense

My stomach upsets and the social nausea

Of being in the proximity of your animosity

Which I can no longer tolerate

I don’t know your personal life

If you’re going through things

Which fuel the animosity that spills from

You

So if you’re going through something

My best wishes are for you

But simply take note that others may be

Silently

Going through their own hardships

And when you sling your poison

It could very well infect them in a way

In which they spew forth their own venom

Which you will be the target

They may not be upset with you

But that won’t matter then

So be conscious of your words

Let your actions be that of a gentler soul

Your voice one more thoughtful

And considerate

And kinder

Than you are now

But until then

I will do my best to let your

Negativity

Slide off of me

I will do my best to let your

Attitude

Not affect me

I will do my best to let your

Rudeness

Go unheard and unnoticed

So I wish you the best

And best take care of yourself

And be kinder to the world

And the people around you

But most of all

I wish you to be a better

YOU

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Later my lovelies.

Have Goodness! Rae